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PS: I Hate You by Lauren Connolly

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PS: I Hate You

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To honor her late brother’s wish, a woman must road-trip with a former flame turned sworn enemy. Cue all the feelings.

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    400+ pages

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    Salacious

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    Roadtrip

Synopsis

Maddie Sanderson would be proud to honor her older brother’s dying wish, that she scatters his ashes over eight destinations that the adventurous 29-year-old never got to visit before he died from cancer. But in his will, Josh assigned her an impossible partner to help complete the mission—Dominic Perry. Seriously, if Maddie weren’t already at her brother’s funeral, she would have killed him for this.

Sure, Dom was Josh’s life-long best friend. He’s also the infuriating man who broke Maddie’s heart back when she was naïve enough to give it to him. But since Dom insists on following the rules and Josh didn’t leave much room for Maddie to argue the matter, they embark together on a series of farewell trips that span thousands of miles, exploring new places and revisiting their complicated history along the way.

After a snowstorm leads to a shared bed, Maddie starts to wonder if her brother might be matchmaking from the grave. But when grief also reopens old wounds between them, Maddie will need more than Josh’s ghostly guidance to trust Dom again.

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PS: I Hate You

CHAPTER ONE

In between muttering curses at the funeral home’s abysmal Wi‑­Fi, I consider if hiding in a supply closet to work during my brother’s wake makes me a terrible sister.

“Well, you didn’t want a funeral anyway, did you?” I whisper to the shelves of cleaning products, as if Josh is a ghost, invisibly sitting next to the bottles of lemon-scented floor polish. “You wanted us to rent a booze cruise and smash piñatas with your face on them.”

My brother couldn’t stand somberness. He was the funny one. A natural comedian who could take the darkest moment and make a joke that would have you laughing while the world around you was a shit show.

Like right now. If only he was here.

But if Josh was here, then there’d be no need for an ­over-​­the-­top mourning ritual he never asked for.

If there is an afterlife where he’s floating around, Josh is dying all over again, but this time from laughter, watching me sit on a half-empty box of toilet paper rolls as I try to put out a digital fire at work, all while wearing itchy tights I scratched so hard that I tore a hole in the left ass cheek.

“You’re welcome,” I say to my laptop as my updated report finally sends, not sure if I’m talking to my boss on the other side of the country or to the specter of my brother. Probably both.

And just when I’m sure I’ve gotten away with my sneaky errand and can rejoin the crowd of mourners filling the building, the closet door opens.

I squeak in surprise at the sudden intrusion and lean back, which is a mistake because that puts my butt on the empty half of the box. The cardboard lid collapses inward, taking me with it. I fold at the waist, laptop smashing against my chest, pantyhose-covered legs shooting straight up in the air.

This day got worse. I didn’t think that was possible.

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Why I love it

I love a road trip. I love a good romance. So I would’ve been happy with a good road trip romance. Imagine my surprise when I read PS: I Hate You and found not only that, but also so much more.

Maddie’s older brother Josh has just died from cancer. Before the full weight of her grief has sunk in, she’s given a last message from her brother. Except, she can’t read it—not alone, that is. In his will, Josh requested that Maddie scatter his ashes across eight destinations he never got to see, and that she do it with his lifelong best friend, Dominic.

The thing is: Dominic and Maddie have history, and it’s not a happy one. After spending years in love with her brother’s best friend, they started a relationship which ended with her heartbroken and him engaged to someone else. Now she will have to travel with him, sharing the last pieces of her brother and remembering the past she wishes to forget.

This is just the book I needed going into the holiday season. Lauren Connolly has written a stunning novel about losing love and finding it again, about discovering solace in memory, and taking comfort in the people around you. I laughed, I cried, I loved every moment living in this story. If you’re looking to read something that will make you feel every emotion and heal you along the way, pick up PS: I Hate You this month!

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The Thirteenth Child
Homeseeking
Most Wonderful
The Courting of Bristol Keats
Pictures of You
PS: I Hate You
The Road of Bones
Bloodguard
Intermezzo
The Dagger and the Flame
The Wild Huntress
The Crimson Crown
Here One Moment
Phantasma
The Pairing
All the Colors of the Dark
The God of the Woods
Same As It Ever Was
The Demon of Unrest
Five Broken Blades
Real Americans
The Reappearance of Rachel Price
Table for Two
The Familiar
A Short Walk Through a Wide World
Just for the Summer
The Wives
A Fate Inked in Blood
The Disappearance of Astrid Bricard
The Fox Wife
The Mayor of Maxwell Street
Ready or Not
Heartless Hunter
The Women
Family Family
Ruthless Vows
Gwen & Art Are Not in Love
The Frozen River
The Future
What We Kept to Ourselves
Wellness
The Fragile Threads of Power
You, Again
The Bookbinder
Happiness Falls
Shark Heart
Love, Theoretically
The Only One Left
The First Ladies
Ink Blood Sister Scribe
Warrior Girl Unearthed
The True Love Experiment
Did You Hear About Kitty Karr?
Yours Truly
Hello Beautiful
I Have Some Questions for You
Clytemnestra
The Last Russian Doll
Someone Else’s Shoes
The Shards
Hell Bent
Age of Vice
A Wilderness of Stars
Babel
The Circus Train
Before I Let Go
Bloodmarked
The Last Party
Foul Lady Fortune
Sign Here
Thistlefoot
As Long as the Lemon Trees Grow
The Attic Child
Bronze Drum
The It Girl
Tomorrow, and Tomorrow, and Tomorrow
The Wedding Dress Sewing Circle
The Change
Part of Your World
Lessons in Chemistry
The Good Left Undone
Kaikeyi
True Biz
Pieces of Her
Booth
Peach Blossom Spring
A River Enchanted
Black Cake
Will
Still Life
The Keeper of Night
The Book of Magic
The Lincoln Highway
Apples Never Fall
In Every Mirror She's Black
Damnation Spring
One Last Stop
Half Sick of Shadows
The Girl with Stars in Her Eyes
What Comes After
In a Book Club Far Away
The Four Winds
Black Buck
The City We Became
The Prophets
The Star-Crossed Sisters of Tuscany
The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue
A Rogue of One's Own
Notes on a Silencing
Friends and Strangers
Evicted
The End of October
The Book of Longings
The Great Believers
Yes No Maybe So
Anna K
Not So Pure and Simple
Red, White & Royal Blue
Long Bright River
When the Stars Lead to You
Ninth House
The Water Dancer
The Fountains of Silence
The Goldfinch
Frankly in Love
Permanent Record
This Tender Land
The Reckless Oath We Made
The Boy and Girl Who Broke the World
The Gifted School
Free Food for Millionaires
Ask Again, Yes
All the Light We Cannot See
Sky Without Stars
Night Music
Small Fry
One Day in December
Nine Perfect Strangers
The Clockmaker's Daughter
The Great Alone
The Heart’s Invisible Furies
The Ministry of Utmost Happiness
A Million Junes
The Nightingale
Behold the Dreamers
A Gentleman in Moscow
The Secret History
Dead Wake
Salt to the Sea
& Sons
Palace of Treason