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PS: I Hate You by Lauren Connolly

Romance

PS: I Hate You

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by Lauren Connolly

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To honor her late brother’s wish, a woman must road-trip with a former flame turned sworn enemy. Cue all the feelings.

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  • Illustrated icon, Emotional

    Emotional

  • Illustrated icon, 400

    400+ pages

  • Illustrated icon, Salacious

    Salacious

  • Illustrated icon, Roadtrip

    Roadtrip

Synopsis

Maddie Sanderson would be proud to honor her older brother’s dying wish, that she scatters his ashes over eight destinations that the adventurous 29-year-old never got to visit before he died from cancer. But in his will, Josh assigned her an impossible partner to help complete the mission—Dominic Perry. Seriously, if Maddie weren’t already at her brother’s funeral, she would have killed him for this.

Sure, Dom was Josh’s life-long best friend. He’s also the infuriating man who broke Maddie’s heart back when she was naïve enough to give it to him. But since Dom insists on following the rules and Josh didn’t leave much room for Maddie to argue the matter, they embark together on a series of farewell trips that span thousands of miles, exploring new places and revisiting their complicated history along the way.

After a snowstorm leads to a shared bed, Maddie starts to wonder if her brother might be matchmaking from the grave. But when grief also reopens old wounds between them, Maddie will need more than Josh’s ghostly guidance to trust Dom again.

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PS: I Hate You

CHAPTER ONE

In between muttering curses at the funeral home’s abysmal Wi‑­Fi, I consider if hiding in a supply closet to work during my brother’s wake makes me a terrible sister.

“Well, you didn’t want a funeral anyway, did you?” I whisper to the shelves of cleaning products, as if Josh is a ghost, invisibly sitting next to the bottles of lemon-scented floor polish. “You wanted us to rent a booze cruise and smash piñatas with your face on them.”

My brother couldn’t stand somberness. He was the funny one. A natural comedian who could take the darkest moment and make a joke that would have you laughing while the world around you was a shit show.

Like right now. If only he was here.

But if Josh was here, then there’d be no need for an ­over-​­the-­top mourning ritual he never asked for.

If there is an afterlife where he’s floating around, Josh is dying all over again, but this time from laughter, watching me sit on a half-empty box of toilet paper rolls as I try to put out a digital fire at work, all while wearing itchy tights I scratched so hard that I tore a hole in the left ass cheek.

“You’re welcome,” I say to my laptop as my updated report finally sends, not sure if I’m talking to my boss on the other side of the country or to the specter of my brother. Probably both.

And just when I’m sure I’ve gotten away with my sneaky errand and can rejoin the crowd of mourners filling the building, the closet door opens.

I squeak in surprise at the sudden intrusion and lean back, which is a mistake because that puts my butt on the empty half of the box. The cardboard lid collapses inward, taking me with it. I fold at the waist, laptop smashing against my chest, pantyhose-covered legs shooting straight up in the air.

This day got worse. I didn’t think that was possible.

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Why I love it

I love a road trip. I love a good romance. So I would’ve been happy with a good road trip romance. Imagine my surprise when I read PS: I Hate You and found not only that, but also so much more.

Maddie’s older brother Josh has just died from cancer. Before the full weight of her grief has sunk in, she’s given a last message from her brother. Except, she can’t read it—not alone, that is. In his will, Josh requested that Maddie scatter his ashes across eight destinations he never got to see, and that she do it with his lifelong best friend, Dominic.

The thing is: Dominic and Maddie have history, and it’s not a happy one. After spending years in love with her brother’s best friend, they started a relationship which ended with her heartbroken and him engaged to someone else. Now she will have to travel with him, sharing the last pieces of her brother and remembering the past she wishes to forget.

This is just the book I needed going into the holiday season. Lauren Connolly has written a stunning novel about losing love and finding it again, about discovering solace in memory, and taking comfort in the people around you. I laughed, I cried, I loved every moment living in this story. If you’re looking to read something that will make you feel every emotion and heal you along the way, pick up PS: I Hate You this month!

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Yours Truly
One-Star Romance
Leather & Lark
The Pairing
Is She Really Going Out With Him?
Pictures of You
PS: I Hate You
Happily Never After
The Paradise Problem
The Love of My Afterlife
Not in Love
The Rom-Commers
Butcher & Blackbird
The Ornithologist’s Field Guide to Love
Ready or Not
Four Weekends and a Funeral
Just for the Summer
How to End a Love Story
The Second Chance Year
A Winter in New York
This Spells Love
Red, White & Royal Blue
You, Again
Love, Theoretically
People We Meet on Vacation
Hello Stranger
Stars in Your Eyes
Part of Your World
Love & Other Disasters
Georgie, All Along
It Ends with Us
The Heart Principle
The True Love Experiment
A Rogue of One's Own
The Holiday Swap
The Bodyguard
The Love Hypothesis
One Last Stop
The Bride Test
Love on the Brain
Head Over Heels
The Reunion
This Time Next Year
One Day in December
Things You Save in a Fire
Lunar Love
Bringing Down the Duke
Ana María and the Fox
Beach Read
Before I Let Go
The Boyfriend Project
How to Marry Keanu Reeves in 90 Days
The Heiress Gets a Duke
The Rewind
In a Holidaze
Kiss Her Once for Me